I changed

That incident started when I waited the lift at Kuhara Court. Two "Ah MO"( white person) came in and waited with me.

Here were our conversations that I still remember:

MO: Are you resident here?
LIM: ork.... 2nd floor. -I shocked because I doesn't expected that he will start a conversation with me. SO I gave a wrong respond and answer to him.
MO: Kamu tinggal sini? He asked again with Bahasa Melayu perhaps he thought that I could not understand his language.

At that particular moment, I got 2 choices. Melayu or English.

He has change the conversation into BM and I can do better in BM compare to ENG but I choose English without any hesitation. Is this what I have changed after studying in West Malaysia? Dare to speak out even though still quite poor and broken in English? YES i guess...

LIM: Ya ya, 2nd floor. Nice to meet you and you are? I answered again with English.
MO: xxxx xxxx xxxx. -Could not remember his name.
LIM: I'm Ryan.
-The conversation continued but not important.

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First Step

That was definitely a good news!

I m actually taking my first step towards my target by working as promoter at next year January. But sorry to Yap Zai cause I cant go Singapore with you because of this work. Pai Sheh~

Although the salary are not attractive but still, better than serving people at restaurant. I mean the Salary not the working environment~

2011

Every time when Tawau friend come to my house, they sure motivate me. Because of? Envy.... Frankly speaking~

I m not going to talk about how and what I envy about them cause that would waste a lot of paper and ink if I list it out... xD I will make my targets come true by the end of next year. At that moment, it is your your your and your turn to envy me~! Muahahaha!!!

The only barrier that block me from achieving them is my finance and I will definitely not to beg my parents for it. So I basically got 1 year time to work hard on those goods. Should be more than enough.

These are the Item and activity that i want by the end of the 2011:
1: brand new badminton racket
2: New Comp ; Desktop or Laptop doesn't matter
3: Vacation with Yap Zai at UK ; need around RM3,500
4: Iphone5 ; Grab it after the 3rd target achieved. Doesn't need to get it before 2011.*

最叛逆的事

做过什么事你认为自己非常叛逆（rebel)的？

以前的我看到别人抽烟会觉得反感，心想他/她干嘛浪费钱再伤害自己。尤其是女生抽烟，有点不能接受的。

Discrimination always happen

现在却不自不觉中习惯了有烟的环境。习惯了看到身上有纹身的美女。左手拿着一支烟另一只手抓着啤酒罐。带有一种女人抽烟喝酒有问题吗？

真的，自己已有“没什么大不了"的想法了~

不同的环境就是不同。

可能以后的自己成为他们的一份子都说不定

I

I realize:

I want to be different with ordinary people. That build my personality.

我喜欢突出，尤其是当别人都注意到自己的时候。

I love improvements but changes demotivate me.

我想要变坏，得到坏的朋友一起做坏事。

I wish to be praised by someone.

我享受被看得起，被重用的感觉。

I need friends, all types of friend.

There is no excuse of not understand the module content, you must try to find solution instead of let the situation getting worse. Ryan, please always play a positive role in the class.

可以看到老师对我是有一定的期望但我担心我会令她失望。。。。

其实我有那种能力来改变别人吗？ 自己都控制不了自己的我一点信心都没有。